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Precious God, Forgive Them, Because They KNOW What They’re Doing

Posted on January 29, 2015 by Marg Herder

This post is the last of the series of posts inspired by the 2015 Gay Christian Network conference held in Portland, Oregon.  The series introduction is here.

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girl prayingI’ve always argued that if the Christians who oppose our equality only understood the extent to which they were hurting us, they would stop.

My argument went like this:

Christians have been isolating themselves from us for so long that they just can’t know how bad it is.  In conservative or evangelical Christianity, the first thing that happens when someone comes out (as LGBTQ) is that other Christians turn away from us. They restrict access and build walls with rules and invalidation.

Since we’ve been exiled in the first act, nobody among the group that banished us ever knows what happens next.  We’re not around.  They don’t see the anguish in our eyes, or sit with us as we cry.

There’s nothing in what Jesus taught that condones hurtful behavior. The Gospel doesn’t urge us to wound each other.  The Gospel urges us to love and breathe life into ourselves, our neighbors, and the world.

So, I reasoned, if the Christians really were followers of Jesus and knew they were hurting us, they would stop.

But after spending a weekend with over a thousand LGBTQ Christians at the 2015 Gay Christian Network conference, and listening to story after story of injury and thoughtlessness, I am ready to admit that my previous explanation of Christians’ unawareness as an excuse for the pain inflicted is certainly no longer true.

Today, the evidence that Christian judgment and unkind behavior results in emotional injury— and sometimes even causes LGBTQ people to kill themselves, as we witnessed recently with Leelah Alcorn’s suicide— is clear and persuasive.  It’s only personal and institutional denial that enables people to pretend they don’t know the results of their injurious words and actions.

With all the LGBTQ people courageously coming out in conservative Christian settings, with all the information available freely on the internet and through print and broadcast media, with our new host of educators and speakers (both LGBTQ people and allies) reaching out to conservative and evangelical Christians, it would be impossible for someone to miss the obvious wounding of our people.

I am convinced that something that may once have been invisible is now visible. And yet the violent campaign of words and actions continues.

Perhaps those who hurt us see our pain and dismiss it as the wages of our sin.  Perhaps this is why they seem not to feel any responsibility.  Perhaps those who hurt us feel they have a divine mandate to make our lives uncomfortable.  Maybe they figure if our lives are comfortable— if we feel integrated, safe, and loved— we’ll have no motivation to return to what they determine to be the acceptable way of living our lives.

But these rationalizations don’t change the fact that they know we are in pain.

There are Christian parents who think the sobs of their children are an indication of how committed they are to fighting sin in their child.  These Christian parents disregard the pain they see with their own eyes, while saying only, “How can I make you stop sinning.”  Never saying, “How can I help you stop hurting?”

They know their child is in pain.

There are Christian leaders who have learned that fear mongering and creating and promoting outrageous claims about LGBTQ people, our community, and our intentions (the lie of the “Gay Agenda” is only one example) are useful and productive marketing and fundraising tools.

They know their actions cause a tidal wave of wounding in faith communities. They know.  But they don’t  show any evidence of caring.

Hurting LGBTQ people with words or actions is not acceptable behavior. It’s not “freedom of religion.”  It’s not “freedom of speech.”  It’s hurting people.

I’m not talking about what people believe, I’m talking about what people do.  People are free to believe what they will.  But it’s not okay to hurt a group of people because you disagree with them, or because you don’t approve of them.  It’s not okay.

As long as I believed in my heart that they just didn’t know, I was able to engage.  I was able to patiently explain the case for speaking and behaving in a more loving manner.  I was able to say, “It’s better to err on the side of love.”  I was able to say, “Ask me anything.”  I was able to believe that God had called me to try to help Christian people understand they were wounding people like me deeply, and doing so in the name of Her son.

But I no longer believe that they just don’t know.

They know.

And I don’t care what kind of mental gymnastics keeps them from integrating that understanding.  It doesn’t matter.  What matters is that they see our pain and it doesn’t move them.  They see us hurt; they see us begging them, as fellow believers, to love us. And they are unmoved.

We’ve been providing convincing biblical arguments for almost 40 years.  We’ve been telling our stories, asking for an end to this war on our souls.  And they remain unmoved.

On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. “Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?”

“What is written in the Law?” he replied. “How do you read it?”

He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’”

“You have answered correctly,” Jesus replied. “Do this and you will live.”

But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?”

In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. The next day he took out two denarii and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’

“Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?”

The expert in the law replied, “The one who had mercy on him.”

Jesus told him, “Go and do likewise.”

Luke 10:25-37 (NIV)

I thank God for Letha Dawson Scanzoni, Kristyn Komarnicki, Susan and Rob Cottrell, Wendy Gritter, David Gushee, Danny Cortez, and all the other straight evangelicals who understand we are their neighbors, and who minister to us by doing what they can to end the Christian assault on LGBTQ people.

I cannot express the depth of my gratitude.

But for me, I’m going to turn my attention toward my own people.  I’m going to try to figure out how to help the wounded among us move through our trauma and pain to become the extraordinary spiritual human beings that Christ/Sophia created us to be.

I know that She forgives the Christians who know what they do, when they see us lying wounded by the road and show no mercy.  I know She forgives them.

Maybe with Her help I’ll be able to, someday, as well.

 

© 2015 by Marg Herder

 

 Index of GCN 2015 Conference Content on Christian Feminism Today

Introduction to the #GCNConf Series
Introduction to weconnect Featured Speaker Wendy Gritter
Interview with weconnect Featured Speaker Wendy Gritter
The Wall of Love at the Gay Christian Network Conference (on the Patheos Emerging Voices blog)
An Opportunity to Practice Grace and Love (guest post by Criselda Marquez)
Trauma and the LGBTQ Christian
Our Job Starts and Stops with Loving Each Other
Together At the Table: Inclusive Communion and Intimate Conversations (guest post by Erica Lea)
The Words of the LGBTQ Christian Experience
Precious God, Forgive Them, Because They KNOW What They’re Doing
The Gay Christian Network Conference: The Kingdom of God Unfolding (guest post by Marcy Bain)

Links:

Gay Christian Network Website
Conference Website
Livestream Conference Plenaries (Jeff Chu, Danny Cortez, Vicky Beeching, Justin Lee)

Social Media:
The hashtag to use is #GCNConf
Conference Twitter Feed Follow @gcnconf
Gay Christian Network Conference Facebook Page
Gay Christian Network Conference Instagram Page

 

 

 

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