Posted September 12, 2014 by Marg Herder
Today I’m posting over on the Emerging Voices blog on Patheos. Thought some of you might be interested in this post as I share more of my thoughts on my present journey of healing.
September is National Recovery Month in the US, and I’ll be featuring more posts about recovery here on Where She Is before the end of the month. Interested in contributing your thoughts on the intersection between your faith and your recovery? Please contact me and let me know what you have in mind.
Great crowds came to him, bringing the lame, the blind, the crippled, the mute and many others, and laid them at his feet; and he healed them. — Matthew 15:30 (NIV)
Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. Humbly asked God to remove our shortcomings. – Steps Two and Seven of the 12 steps
Several weeks ago I attended a charismatic worship service. As the musicians played, expertly modulating the spiritual energy in the room, as the liturgical dancers danced with flags and ribbons, as the crowd, arms up, singing and swaying, pressed forward seeking healing from their Source, the ministers of the Word moved among them, praying and touching, before gently lowering the shaking bodies of the healed to the ground. There they lay, as others knelt and guarded them, held them, cried over them until the shaking stopped. Those encircling them moved away only after the eyes of the one healed had opened, wide with the understanding they had been made new by the Holy Spirit.
It was not my first time attending a service like this. But it was my first time in many years, and my first time attending while being aware of a certain desperate need for healing within my own self. I was too self-conscious to walk to the front of the room. I stood in place and watched, tears filling my eyes as I silently prayed that someday I would be courageous enough to let go of my own judgment, to let go of my own cynicism, and give myself over to the mystery and miracle of that type of certainty in God’s immediate healing power.